Arrow Rock Literary Journal

I Offer Up Myself

They hunger for me. They are so, so hungry. I am more than willing to let Them feast. I let Them consume me.

I offer up myself. They accept me.

 

They rule me. Their hand grips my hair. They yank me where They want me. Hold me in place. Right there. I go willingly. Like a puppet, I would be lifeless without Their hands on me. I would be lost without Their direction. I would be dead without Their touch.

I offer up myself. They accept me. 

 

They devour me. They are all I can see. Swallowing me whole. But not without my consent. They ask again and again if They can have me. I tell Them again and again that I’m Theirs. That They can have any part of me They want. That my mind, body, and soul is Theirs. That They possess me.

I offer up myself. They accept me. 

 

They burn me. Hotter and brighter than any solar body. I wonder if They know how hot They are. It radiates off Them like a magnetic field. It pulls me in. Do They know the pain that comes with the pleasure. Do They know the regret I have after, when I see the burns. Do They know how many times I told myself that I wouldn’t come back. That I would leave Them. That my Self would finally be my own. But every time I see Them, every time I see that thirst in Their eyes, every time They tell me They are hungry. 

I offer up myself. They accept me.

You Are Mine

You are mine

I hunger for You

I need You so, so bad

I know that You will give me what I need

But still I ask

And You offer Yourself to me

And I consume You

 

You are mine

I rule You

I know which buttons to press

Which strings to pull

I will put You where I want You

You will stay where I need You

You would be nothing without my guiding hand

And You offer Yourself to me

And I consume You

 

You are mine

I devour You

I am Your world

I swallow You whole because I can

I ask again and again

I know what You’ll say but

I want to hear it from Your lips

Tell me

Tell me that You’re mine

That I can have any part of You I want

That Your mind body and soul are mine

That I possess You

And You offer Yourself to me

And I consume You

 

You are mine

I burn You

Every morning every evening

I am Your Sun

Do You know

That Your Pain

Is just as delicious as Your Pleasure

I love to see You after

Weak and burnt

Yet You always come back

You will never leave me

I am a part of You

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Joshua Hammond has been reading since he was two years old. He reads books, comics, short stories, webcomics, manga, poetry, interviews, articles, and labels on chip bags. He also regularly listens to audiobooks and podcasts. You can find his website here joshuadhammond and his journal here Lotto Gelato Grotto.